We have this ache inside us, a longing for more. More love, more success, more recognition, less sin, less failure, . There’s this very American idea that our goal in life should be to be number one in the spotlight, that we deserve to be adored, that we are a special bright star in a dark night of losers. But this is not the case, we are average, normal people. Lord have mercy on my soul, for I am a sinner. I have to watch the people around me be effected negatively and hurt because of my own sin. I have to see how I fail them as they grow disappointed in me. I have to repent. I have to be reminded that regardless of how badly I want to succeed, I still fail. Daily, I can’t be enough. I learn to be content in the shadows. I learn to be quiet when others grow bored of hearing me speak. I am the least of these.
Yet, Christ calls us to persevere. It would be so much easier to quit and accept our worthlessness and weaknesses as final.
“Do not be slothful in zeal, be fervent in spirit, serve the Lord. Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer. Contribute to the needs of the saints and seek to show hospitality. Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse them. Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. Live in harmony with one another. Do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly. Never be wise in your own sight.” (Romans 12:11-16 ESV)
That’s how grace works. It takes the weakest, the last, the ones who know they need to be saved and it connects them with the holy One who can do all things. Who can create hope and love out of nothing because He created the earth out of nothing. The one who never changes, never fails, always perseveres. Our God does not change, and that is a blessing and a comfort.
When we turn our eyes to Him, only then can we see, can we hope.